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Journal Prompt #41: What's the hardest part about letting go? What does letting go mean? Letting go is accepting that you have no control over the situation, person, etc. and allowing the feelings associated with it to no longer impact you. You can still feel the feelings, as you should, but it is about not letting them control your perception of the situation once they flow through you. The hardest part for me, about letting go is the fact that I will no longer be in control

Image of trees looking onto a river in the distance at sunset "Take Me Home" I said to my car, after a long day I know I was ready to sit in my bed and let my head rest. I think after all this time I realized how important my home really is to me, my safe space, and my alone time. Today was more of a rough day than we were expecting. I had a great weekend, time full of friends, family and becoming more comfortable with who I am, what I like to do and focusing on what is most

Journal Prompt #28- Imagine if you can have a 15 minute call with your soul mate. What would you tell them? I think this one is an interesting prompt, because it is purely hypothetical and of course part of me believes that I would be able to talk to them about anything. That is the thing that I am learning more about myself in general, I am not really an open book. I am more like a mysterious cave that someone needs to be brave enough to explore. Once you decide you want to

Journal Prompt #33, write a letter to the moon Dear Moon, I love that whenever I look up to you, I can see you looking back at me. Tomorrow you will be ful, the Buck moon. Determination, progress and growth- somethings that I think we are all needing. Thank you for always looking out for me. For providing us with light in the dark and to remember that we are not alone in this world, that there are things out there looking back at us to ensure that we are in our right places a

Journal Prompt #12: What memory brings a smile to your face? There is something special about memories- there is a way that they make you feel that can always bring them back to your mind. There can be memories that make us feel sad, or bring our body back to a sense of fear, dread, shame, or any other feeling. Sometimes there tend to be people who feel stronger emotions tied to memories as well. If you have a negative association with a memory and you think of it often, try

Journal Prompt #46: What are your most reoccurring negative thoughts? Negative thoughts are something that I have thankfully been working on though out this journey. A journey it has been as well. Something that I have been struggling with since I was a little kid is the fact that I am not enough. No matter what I do, say, feel, love, I never felt like I was doing enough. It was exhausting to try and keep pushing through that feeling. How can a child feel that type of way abo

Thank you Mary Oliver for the quote that inspired this post. Now that I am free to be myself Today has been such a great day to be a human being! I feel as though I am truly connected to my place in the world and helping myself become the best version of myself. I truly am grateful for everything that I’ve had in my life to get me right here. I was looking at my advice for my 27th year around the sun and it was so interesting how something about the stars knew that this year

Hello Mom, When you were 27 turning 28 you were a couple years into your marriage, had your first kid and living in Milwaukee. Funny, that is one thing we have in common at this age. Loving the big city of Milwaukee. I am sure it is so different now than it was when you lived here. I've been to Wolskis, never closed it down- alcohol was not good for me. You don't drink now either. I wonder if you would have stopped at my age. It is more common for people to not now. I wonder

This is a theme in therapy these past couple weeks. I have been having a very hard time opening up to people, letting them know when I need help and even when I need support. I can tell people when I need space, but never when I am feeling weak. Part of that to me feels like I am scared to feel that I need help or that I will not be loved if I am looking or being presented as weak. Asking for help is not a weakness I am learning but a strength. I have been going through the u

This is such an interesting journal prompt. When I was at my lowest, what kept me alive. Well there are different versions of me who have been at their own lowest right. I will not talk about anything too triggering in this, but there needs to be the truth in this as well. There will be talks of suicide and other mental health struggles. My first lowest I can remember and can speak to about is my suicide attempt and what I was going through around that. I have been self harmi

A lot of people seem to be surprised when I tell them a bit about my recent history. "Oh wow, are you okay" I usually get- a lot. yes of course, I am on the other side of the mountain that was me. There is a lot of relationships that end this way, with families or significant others. For me I had two pretty big endings last year. Both coming to the point where I feel I am in my closure point of it. The disrespect at the end was louder than any good memory we ever had...that i

AH.. I know today will be a heavy post. Dreading writing for the first time today. I do have a lot of grief on my plate. I will be water and let the emotions flow through me. In order to let go, I have to acknowledge what I am struggling with. The lesson of today is to stop running from grief, so this post is about looking it dead in the eyes and telling it exactly how it made me feel. How life has made me feel. To the hurt. You sit heavy on my chest a lot of the time. I feel

I know the title is dramatic, and I definitely can be at times so humor me. What is something I wish I could say to my parents... this is something that has been on my mind a lot lately. With therapy, my brother and his wife having a child soon, family has been something that is really at the top of my mind lately. In therapy yesterday, I talked a lot about how I do not have a sense of belonging in my family- that it makes me feel alone in my every day life due to that. I hav

I am honestly the happiest I have ever been. Please believe me that I have only really cried out of joy lately. Happiness with my roommate, while on walks with friends, in my room thinking about where I am at in life and honestly it is such a beautiful experience. I have had a lot of time where the feelings were the opposite. Whenever people see me lately, or meet me- I get comments about how my light is there, that I seem to have found my inner peace, a lot about how good of

What's the most painful thing I've ever been told? There was something that my siblings and I talked about recently that really hit me to my core. We were playing we aren't really strangers, talking about our childhood and my brother mentioned something one of my aunts told him. "Once your parents got a divorce, the four of us met to talk about how we were going to handle it and with your dad- we decided it would be best for all of us if we separated ourselves from your famil

Life is really a rollercoaster, isn't it? It has such a way of ensuring that you can feel every feeling. This past 24 hours has been something different for me. I went to a mentorship event yesterday looking for answers on what I should be doing with my business. I have honestly struggled a lot with what I should be doing since graduating. My struggle with putting all of this together is my imposter syndrome. I am my own worst enemy a lot of the time. With the mentorship even

Happy Earth Day Friends! May you find time to be outside today, pick up trash that you may find on the street and find beauty in the spring that is coming. As we progress from spring teases to a genuine spring/early summer. The Earth is reminding us to plant the seeds that we want to see this year. The ground has thawed, so your thoughts are ready to have input again to see what you'd like to see in this year. What seeds should you think about planting? Think about your psych

Growing up my parents always threatened me that "someday when I am a parent I will understand". That one day I will have to experience the girl who I am but in child form. I don't know if I ever want kids. Truly. I think with the way the world is going it is a little scary of a thought to bring a child into this world. I also don't know if I could mentally handle the physical changes that happen to my body when carrying a baby. This image has been sitting in my phone for over

Unlearning your own toxic patterns is a form of self-care. Seeing this line made me want to create a blog post. It is one of the most true statements that I have read in a long time. In order to heal yourself and truly care for yourself- you do need to unlearn your toxic patterns. One thing that I have been doing really well at lately, was changing the way I talk about myself. I used to be very negative about myself, about the things that I do, and the way that I look. My neg

This past week I have experienced some tremendous growth and I am going to shout out the earth for that one. I truly have been able to experience all my emotions this week, not letting them control me and not really having OCD symptoms. Overall it has been a really great growth month. I finished up my OCD training and I am not quite sure if it helped or not but at the end of the day I noticed a lot of growth and I am going to take that as a win. I went to see RuPaul DJ at t