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One of the things that I learned the most throughout the duration of this trip is how much I genuinely love spending time with myself. Photo of rocks surrounding a little steam with moss A lot of people are afraid to spend time with themselves because of the thoughts that they have or anything that makes them uncomfortable. It’s easier to mask that when you’re around other people. When you’re able to spend genuine time with yourself, especially after therapy, it isn’t too bad

Todays prompt is about worth. Who's made you question your worth? Why did you let them? Journal Prompt #72 Who's made you question your worth? Why did you let them? This question is so loaded I honestly do not know where to begin. Self-worth is something that I have been working on for what feels like my entire life to achieve. From what I can remember, I was always compared to my siblings, other people's expectations, and a whole boatload of things. I know we all experience

your presence, provides me with a sense of calm so comfortable, you feel like home you never fail to draw me in a warm hug, so inviting you bring balance and growth renewal that cannot be quantified only felt when I am with you the connection does not waiver the calmness you bring does me a favor seeing you brings a freshness that we crave thank you for helping me be brave

There was something about this weekend that has me feeling delusional—in the best way. There are some people that are in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. There have been a lot of people that have been in my life for a reason, and they have taught me many lessons. People who come for a season often feel as though we needed each other to grow. The people who are in your life for a lifetime are typically seen as family; however, I am more of a chosen family perso

Reflecting on a Rollercoaster Week This week has been one of the most rollercoaster days that I have had in a long time. I am changing my supplements, waiting for updates from doctors, and trying to see what my body can do on its own without the support of hormones and other things that I used to need to keep it going. It has been a weird week filled with feelings of depression, restlessness, and the creeping back of my OCD symptoms. Struggles with Control and OCD Trying to r

TRIGGER WARNING: Death by suicide A lot of people talk about how empowering healing is, even I have been guilty of this because for the first time in my life I am genuinely happy! Since I stopped drinking, and healed my mental health to a point where my body knows that it is safe and not in fight or flight- I am a whole new person. Your physical body will tell you how it feels with the benefits of not having cortisol or your central nervous system finally being calm. That onc

In this phase of life, I have been working on turning into the divine feminine and allowing myself to not be as involved in the controlling aspects that the sacred masculine holds. For most of my life, I feel as though I was in the sacred masculine in order to have some peace of mind. In order to protect myself from the things I was experiencing, that is what was needed. Lately, I have been receiving continuous guidance to tune into the feminine—to let go of control. I am saf

As we close out January of 2026, there is a lot of great momentum in the air. Although there is a lot of tension in the air as well—politically, there is so much going on—sending love to those in MN who are out there fighting against ICE and protecting their neighbors, family, and friends. This year, there is one question that keeps coming back to the top of my mind— "If you don't mind sharing, what is your wish for this year?" There is a lot that I'd like to wish for this ye

After a weekend of adventure and rest, I need to focus on relaxation. The outside temperature is making it hard to be productive today. I started well, completing work tasks, cleaning, and organizing. However, after lunch, my brain feels disconnected. Many suggest tackling the most important tasks first, as this approach is often touted for its potential to maximize productivity and ensure that critical responsibilities are addressed promptly. However, this strategy can inadv

With help from my roommates generous mind- here is a guide to your vision board in 2026. Steps: Find your why - through answering these questions curated by her, I was able to help understand myself a bit better. What do you enjoy doing at work? I really enjoy writing and journaling. I really enjoy drawing and creating art and designing. I feel my best when I can be creative and enjoy my work. What has made you proud? I felt proud when designing things for COA, HTA, and stic

The Weight of Anticipation Do you ever find yourself caught in the throes of anticipation, where the energy of waiting, whether for something exciting or daunting, consumes you? I certainly do. Finding Balance in Anticipatory Energy On one hand, there’s the thrill of upcoming adventures: traveling, reuniting with friends, or even the simple joy of receiving a package in the mail. These moments spark excitement and joy. On the other hand, there’s the weight of "bad" anticipato

There are times in my life when I feel like I am stuck in two different spaces. There are things about my life that make me feel I am ready to be this whole new version of myself - I am ready to take these brave steps. There are other days when my thoughts consume me completely, and I get stuck in a situation I am no longer in, but a part of me still feels stuck. Then music comes to me. NF is an artist that I really appreciate. He talks about the struggles of OCD, trauma, and

Happy Holidays to those who celebrate. Lately, I have been journaling more than blog posting to keep some of my personal life a bit more private. With the new year coming, there are such incredible opportunities coming my way, and I am so excited for my future. This past season has really been about coming back to myself, rooting in myself. Winter is seen as the time of hibernation, stocking up, staying in, and resting. If you know much about me, rest and I hardly fit into th

It’s wild to me that we claim to learn, be better and grow from previous relationships. In some ways we do, we learn how we don’t want to be treated. We also put up such high walls and expectations in order to get into another one because of the fear of getting hurt. Last night I had nightmares for the first time in months because I felt like I was silencing myself. That all these things I claimed to learn and grow from. I still can’t listen to myself. She breaks but leaves r

There are a lot of things that have an impact on your day—people, your job, the food that you eat, exercise that you do. So many seconds in a day to make an impact. Lately, I have been testing my mental strength and pushing my body to do something that I do not typically do—run distance. I sprinted in middle and high school and always told myself I would never do distance. My brother definitely changed my mindset. He talked to me about the toughness that comes from pushing yo

As I mentioned in previous blogs, I used to be a model for one of my friends growing up. I realize now how much I loved it and how much confidence seeing pictures like this brought me. I would do back bends and honestly anything she asked of me, like I said earlier...I craved the external validation and other people looking at me in terms of beauty. I wanted so desperately (and still do to this day a bit) want people to think of me as beautiful. Growing up I was kind of a wil

(TW: self harm/scars) When I was 18 I got my first tattoo with my now sister-in-law. I knew for a long time that I was going to get one, didn't matter what my parents thought. I have always loved the idea of our bodies telling stories of our lives. Things change Little did a I know then how much and how often things do change - but it didn't mean people do. The more I've grown in my journey, the more I have felt that this tattoo is something that my body was trying to tell me

Do you ever feel like Alexander Hamilton? With the 10th anniversary of Hamilton being this year, it has made me really think about how some days I am Hamilton and some days I am Burr. Talk less. Smile more. Don't let them know what you are against or what you are for... I like to think I am more of an observer in my habitat before I let down my wall and let people in. I tend to want to make a great impression on people, have them see something they like in me, and then I can

Life is filled with transitions, and often, significant changes prompt us to shift our physical surroundings. For me, short vacations to visit friends, catch up on work, and explore new places have become essential in navigating these changes. During my travels, I frequently battled a sense of lack. It baffled me that I could feel this way surrounded by loved ones in vibrant cities filled with exciting activities. After some deep reflection, I realized that this feeling of la

Life involves losing people and gaining new ones. People are meant to be in our lives for specific periods, teaching us valuable lessons. While there are many sayings about why people come and go, they often don't address what happens when they're absent from our lives. During these times, you grow and learn, often reflecting on the wonderful moments and experiences shared with those individuals. This past weekend, I had the pleasure of genuinely reconnecting with someone who