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With help from my roommates generous mind- here is a guide to your vision board in 2026. Steps: Find your why - through answering these questions curated by her, I was able to help understand myself a bit better. What do you enjoy doing at work? I really enjoy writing and journaling. I really enjoy drawing and creating art and designing. I feel my best when I can be creative and enjoy my work. What has made you proud? I felt proud when designing things for COA, HTA, and stic

The Weight of Anticipation Do you ever find yourself caught in the throes of anticipation, where the energy of waiting, whether for something exciting or daunting, consumes you? I certainly do. Finding Balance in Anticipatory Energy On one hand, there’s the thrill of upcoming adventures: traveling, reuniting with friends, or even the simple joy of receiving a package in the mail. These moments spark excitement and joy. On the other hand, there’s the weight of "bad" anticipato

There are times in my life when I feel like I am stuck in two different spaces. There are things about my life that make me feel I am ready to be this whole new version of myself - I am ready to take these brave steps. There are other days when my thoughts consume me completely, and I get stuck in a situation I am no longer in, but a part of me still feels stuck. Then music comes to me. NF is an artist that I really appreciate. He talks about the struggles of OCD, trauma, and

Happy Holidays to those who celebrate. Lately, I have been journaling more than blog posting to keep some of my personal life a bit more private. With the new year coming, there are such incredible opportunities coming my way, and I am so excited for my future. This past season has really been about coming back to myself, rooting in myself. Winter is seen as the time of hibernation, stocking up, staying in, and resting. If you know much about me, rest and I hardly fit into th

It’s wild to me that we claim to learn, be better and grow from previous relationships. In some ways we do, we learn how we don’t want to be treated. We also put up such high walls and expectations in order to get into another one because of the fear of getting hurt. Last night I had nightmares for the first time in months because I felt like I was silencing myself. That all these things I claimed to learn and grow from. I still can’t listen to myself. She breaks but leaves r

There are a lot of things that have an impact on your day—people, your job, the food that you eat, exercise that you do. So many seconds in a day to make an impact. Lately, I have been testing my mental strength and pushing my body to do something that I do not typically do—run distance. I sprinted in middle and high school and always told myself I would never do distance. My brother definitely changed my mindset. He talked to me about the toughness that comes from pushing yo

As I mentioned in previous blogs, I used to be a model for one of my friends growing up. I realize now how much I loved it and how much confidence seeing pictures like this brought me. I would do back bends and honestly anything she asked of me, like I said earlier...I craved the external validation and other people looking at me in terms of beauty. I wanted so desperately (and still do to this day a bit) want people to think of me as beautiful. Growing up I was kind of a wil

(TW: self harm/scars) When I was 18 I got my first tattoo with my now sister-in-law. I knew for a long time that I was going to get one, didn't matter what my parents thought. I have always loved the idea of our bodies telling stories of our lives. Things change Little did a I know then how much and how often things do change - but it didn't mean people do. The more I've grown in my journey, the more I have felt that this tattoo is something that my body was trying to tell me

Do you ever feel like Alexander Hamilton? With the 10th anniversary of Hamilton being this year, it has made me really think about how some days I am Hamilton and some days I am Burr. Talk less. Smile more. Don't let them know what you are against or what you are for... I like to think I am more of an observer in my habitat before I let down my wall and let people in. I tend to want to make a great impression on people, have them see something they like in me, and then I can