Confident-ish...

As I mentioned in previous blogs, I used to be a model for one of my friends growing up. I realize now how much I loved it and how much confidence seeing pictures like this brought me.

I would do back bends and honestly anything she asked of me, like I said earlier...I craved the external validation and other people looking at me in terms of beauty. I wanted so desperately (and still do to this day a bit) want people to think of me as beautiful. Growing up I was kind of a wild kid, ran around in my yard, hardly brushed my hair, wore hand-me-downs, etc.

So beauty wasn't something that was important to me until school started and I felt like I didn't fit in.

Then in high school I saw this picture of myself and truly felt that I understood what people say when they compliment me. I never really believed it before. I have more of a "natural" beauty.

That means I have to be more of an acquired taste, or someone who isn't into conventional beauty. I do not have the symmetry that the brain is looking for due to my "beauty marks" on my face. Marilyn Monroe and I have ours in a similar location. She was someone who was confident, sexy, and helped women become the people we are today.

Today for me, I still am trying my best to feel and be as confident as I should be. Comfortability in your own skin is hard to come by, but that doesn't mean it is impossible. Each day you can change that 1 degree to get closer to your target. I take each day to ensure I am speaking positive about myself, how I feel in my own skin and most importantly what things I am doing make me feel.

I have an amazing opportunity coming to my plate with Felicia Unlocked LLC and I cannot wait to share it with you all. A little sneak peak as to what this opportunity brings to me - joy, confidence-ish, and most importantly a chosen family. I love and cannot wait to tell you more about our growing family!

Stay tuned to see what amazing things are coming! Remember to say kind things to yourself. If you can't love yourself how the h*ll are you going to love anyone else?